im sick. with dunno what sickness.
but i know my brother gave it to me, he was sick first.
i feel terrible.

and nothing's helping.
please let me get better by monday.

observations.

i noticed something quite interesting today.

it seems like people with the letters "ph" in their names, cannot finish their food most of the times. and get their boyfriends to clear the food. And the boyfriends just so happen to like eating very much, so it's okay. and also, those that names have the letters "ph", will not really know how to do activities like playing pool or rollerblading, because maybe they are reluctant to learn, or maybe because they have no time. or maybe because of both.

i shall observe for a longer period of time.

sebasKHEH, tabble tennis cannot luh, too easy. want to win gold medal then win the marathon one luh, marathon is closing ceremony present medal leh. every year also like that.

alright,

3 days since my last blog post, tons of stuff happened.

1. no more irritating flamers on my blog,
2. i accidentally bought the most expensive pair of shoes ever,
3. olympics are over, and
4. the singapore table-tennis team manager got fired.

well, just gonna elaborate on points 2 and 4. yea, so on saturday i was at centrepoint cos my dad wanted buy a new wallet, so i was browsing the shoes there, and i saw the most amazing pair of loafers. its from this brand called Jshoes or sth like that, they're breaking into the singapore market, so their display was actually just a saw corner of the male section in robinsons. there was supposed to be storewide discount or something, so i just tried it out, and basically almost fell in love with it. then when i went to pay, it was S$179. i just stood there at the cashier, either from shock or from asphyxiation cos maybe i wasn't breathing. luckily for me, my dad said it was my BIRTHDAY PRESENT. i tell you, i'm so bloody happy, cos firstly, i can't afford the shoes, and second, it's been ages since i got a birthday present from my parents

on the matter of the manager being fired, i don't really have much to say. seems like singapore got the goods, and is trying to get rid of the people who earned it. okay, so you might argue that the medal is earned by the players. but who trains the players? the coach. who coordinates everything else? the manager. without the manager the coaches can be as great as heaven, but still the team would be useless, cos the manager MANAGES the team, thus the title. and especially after getting the first medal in 43 40 years. it adds on the whole how-ironic-this-is situation. plus that person that fired the manager, has barely warmed her seat as [whatever position she's at] for a year. it's totally like, what the hell.

nice impression on our future athletes.

2 more days..

found some interesting morsels here, some which i'm gonna post up.

The law
Teo Wee Meng, a trainer in cyber Crimes in the Criminal Investigation Department,said if there's "malicious intent", miscreants will be "charged in court, and will either be jailed or fined". However, experts believe that having laws are just one side of the coin. Said Esther: "To eliminate cyber-bullying, it will help if students know that the law in Singapore does not tolerate cyber-bullying. Knowing that cyber bullies can be prosecuted may deter people from doing so."

Statistics
Singapore has the second highest number of cyber-bullying cases after the US, says new survey. Esther Ng, founder of the Coalition Against Bullying for Children & Youth, an agency that provides resources for people to seek help on bullying issues, agreed. She cited a 2006 survey of 3,488 Singaporean students in which 25 per cent - or 872 students - admitted to having been victimised online. Another 31 per cent said that the online victimisation was in addition to physical bullying they also faced.
Citing studies published by WiredSafety.org, Poh Yeang Cherng, manager of Touch Cyber Wellness & Sports, said: "There are far more reports of cyber- bullying from Singapore on a per capita basis compared to all other countries except for the United States."

Wed, Mar 12, 2008
The Straits Times

and right at the bottom of the post,

Parry Aftab said... on June 27, 2008 8:10 PM,

WiredSafety.org provided the information about the nunber of cases of cyberbullying in Singapore vs the US many years ago. It was never a study, but an observation based on our received reports.A study should be completed to see how this impression from years ago plays out today.As always, we welcome any collaborations in Singapore. It's one of my favorite places on earth...and there is always Chili Crab!

Best.
Dr. Parry Aftab
Executive Director
WiredSafety.org

Well, i'm sure that, if it was studied properly, it'll be obvious that the numbers between cases of cyberbullying in singapore vs the US will be much closer, maybe even overtaking the US in position. citing from what the CID officer said, i'm sure everything on my tagboard is considered malicious, not to mention what i've been seeing on the tagboards of other blogs. definition of malicious:

1. 
   deliberately harmful: motivated by or resulting from a desire to cause harm or pain to others

i'm sure, based on the tagboard comments alone, i've already got some ground against whoever wants to take me on.

thanks to weijie, for linking the site.

3 days to go..

SMS exchange that happened this afternoon between me and him.

3:33 p.m, from +65****0345(him)
Hello s'bas-chen. This is 'Mr Daniel'. You must have a lot of time, spending the whole day at bishan. So tell me, what are you going to tell my school?

3:34 p.m, from me
I dunno. I'm showing them my posts, your posts, and everything on my tagboard

3:35 p.m, from him
I see. And what do you hope to achieve from that? My blog to be shut down? People to stop spamming you?

3:36 p.m, from me
i don't know either. maybe the latter. And of course i've got free time, it's my hols now

3:38 p.m, from him
ok. you plan to get people to stop spamming ur tagboard. and how do you think they'll(the school) help you do that?

3:40 p.m, from me
Lol, stop asking questions that i don't have answers to. Maybe the whole lot of you should get disciplined or something, idk

3:45 p.m, from him
If you don't have a plan for what you're gonna do, won't it be hard to do? And i don't think my sch has the time to punish all your taggers. It's the test period now you know. Everyone is busy marking stuff. And what can they do anyway? Take away our internet access? Here's a suggestion: lock ur blog.

3:51 p.m, from me
Why would i need to lock my blog? it's open for a reason, but it's bot for flooding of insults on my tagboard. i posted my comment, you posted yours, but i didn't shoot personal insults at you people. You/your friends started everything. Now when something happens, you start to question my actions.

3:56 p.m, from him
Hmm. you speak some truth. True, the topic isn't connect sg anymore (which, i assume was what we both wanted it to be). Now my so called "frens" (believe it or not, i didn't ask them to tag at all) tag for the sake of spamming. How do you think this can be stopped?

4:01 p.m, from me
I don't know. Tell you what. I stall for three days. you try your best to stop them. if i get a new tag on friday itself, i'm going down to your school for real.

4:07 p.m, from him
So what you mean is if you get any flaming tag on friday you'll tell my school? Sounds
like a good suggestion(it can answer the qns i asked earlier)

i was planning to go down to the school to settle the problem once and for all, but i gave him a chance to stop me. i was down at bishan all afternoon, and was planning to meet up with someone from the school at 7. I told him on his tagboard that he could stop me if he wanted to.

this is the exchange of sms between us this afternoon; i left my hp number on his blog's tag, but he removed it, probably cos he was afraid someone would prank msg/call me. I told him if i received any stupid prank calls or sms, i'm going straight to the school, no chance for him. Well, he thinks that he can solve the problem. I didn't answer his question; he's going to solve the problem himself.

Last note, to all you flamers. i didn't insult him in the first place. Definition of insult:

1. be offensive: to say or do something rude or insensitive that offends somebody else
   
2. show contempt: to say or do something suggesting a low opinion of somebody or something

an example of an insult would be e.g all the things you dickheads put on my tagboard. and if you're that stupid, dickhead is a form of insult. Important point being: i did not start the insulting. you people did. all i did was retaliate.

suprise, suprise.

apparently my previous post was all for nothing. another ball-less dude's comment. there is no 1T in RI. whoever posted that is all he said i was, plus more, i guess. mark lee from RI 1T. thanks for proving my point even further.

well then, another letter for me, found here

dear mr. goh yon-lu

well, i called him "high-and-mighty" based on the tone of his blogpost, and not because he's from RI. plus, i'm getting flamed because i commented that he was wrong to say that it was entirely the organiser's fault, but i have no idea why everyone else thinks i'm insulting him. and i don't take credit. whether i deserve it or not.

and anyways, it's defamatory enough to get the blog shut down. the thing is, you can criticise, but only if it's not obvious to the person you're criticising, only if you've made an attempt to hide their identity. since the tags were made directly towards me, and i'm not hiding behind any names. even if it's based on what you said, there were false claims. one point: i'm not gay, so there we have it, false claim. and i'm not preventing you from criticising. just do it smart so i have no reason to shoot you.

and i insist that you all didnt follow instructions, because i swear to god, i yelled at you all to hold hand for over 20 minutes, but still, all i see was clusters. one arm's length, hold hands, yes, it isn't alot to do, but you all still didn't do it.

last point: that blogpost didn't say anything about connect sg. stop using it to shoot my post.

thank you. for entertaining me.

wow.

right after i posted the last post, mark lee from Raffles Institue Class 1T decided to grace my blog with his presence. well, i thank you, for at least you have the balls to leave your name, unless it's not really who you say you are, then fuck off get lost.

some notes to point out:

• first, i did not insult your friend on his blog. i just showed my unhappiness. there was nothing insulting pointed directly at him in my first comment. it wasn't even insulting in the first place.
• second, you're disgracing yourself and your peers by calling me "neighbourhood people". this is the exact behaviour i pointed out in one of my previous posts.
• third, i don't own an ebay account. so i can't sell or buy stuff online. and my balls are right here between my legs, you can't buy them even if you traded yours in along with your friend's
• fourth, i am not a person that one would consider hairy. i've been trying to grow a goatee for 1 and a half years now, and nothing's sprouting from my chin.
• lastly, when i saw that you've made a blog for me, i was, let's say, maybe even a little bit ecstatic. but when i found out it was a false URL, i was really disappointed. if you say you've done something, make sure you've really done it. that's having real balls, not plastic ones which go click-clack when you walk around.

thank you, and next time, if you have long comments, just post them under the comments section of the blogpost, i hate it when people flood my tagboard. i look forward to seeing your comments.

LOOK.

today i'm gonna post something interesting. around noon i got new comments on my tagboard that was degrading to RI, under the names loser RI and sbas chen, the latter trying to imitate what i normally use on blogs, only i don't put a spacing in between. There was an imposter using my name to insult others. naturally i replied on my own tagboard that it wasn't me, i didn't find a need to have a new blog post just to explain what happened.

soon after i got another comment on the tagboard by a guy calling himself some @sshole. good that he knows. and this time the comment was towards me, telling me how much i suck.

Well, the funny thing is, all three comments came from the same person, as i found out through checking the IP addresses. that's why i use cbox, they let you check the user's IP easily. All three comments came from the same IP address, just under different names.

I figured that you're also one of those from RI, trying to frame me on my own tagboard and all. the carelessness and the immaturity shows though; the internet can't hide everything. i'm just wondering why you'd scold your own people.

this picture above is a screenshot taken from the cbox website, when i was checking the IP addresses. with these IP addresses, one can easily find out where a person is accessing the internet from, with the necessary skills. the user can change the IP address all he wants, but the signature left behind would still be the same. I've included a few other tags to show what happens when the tag is left by different people, and as you people can see very clearly for yourselves, the IPs from the above stated comments are all the same. comments made by me will have the same IPs as each other too, obviously.

to whoever you are: you're just one move away from revealing who you are. if i see your browsing signature again, i'll track you down, and because i'd be rather pissed off, i'm letting my dad handle the rest. and i assure you, you wouldn't want him to know.

To Demojake.

demojake said...
hey sebastain;

as a former councillor, i have seen my share of fails and successes of various organised events, and here's my opinions.

i was rather surprised when you came across to me as a really patriotic teen, a stark contrast to many of us that are sort of disillusioned, so to speak.

however, you should understand that sec1s don't have the maturity of 18 year olds. fresh out of primary school, obviously their minds are still entwined with fun, games, and other paraphernalia. to get them to stand the sweltering heat to them is absolute torture given that they don't really understand the event, much less appreciate its significance.

i hate to do it, but i am afraid the accusing finger has to be directed at you people. it is your responsibility not just to execute the event for the sake of getting it over and done with, but the welfare of all the participants must also be considered. food, drinks, ample shelter, good coordination and proper instructions are keys to letting them be more focused on the event. however, from some blogs i have read, i didnt notice (correct me if i erred). even i myself would not be pleased with the execution if such crucial steps were missed.

sure, these steps seem hard, but it is the cost of doing events on such a large scale. if you cannot do it, then don't do it, unless it was purely for the portfolio mark.

hope to hear from you soon.

August 16, 2008 12:44 PM

hey demojake.

i really appreciate your understanding that this was not purely my fault, and for that, i thank you.

to clear up on some points; i didn't do it for so-called portfolio marks. i did it out of pure sense of volunteerism. i like to volunteer, that's who i am. and why did i choose to be a motivator in connect singapore? because i was sure i could carry out my part successfuly.

You have to understand, as being chief motivator of a school, i'm sort-of near the bottom of the command chain. Everything was planned by the exco, we were told to listen carefully. it's not that i'm pushing the blame or anything, but the teachers and schools were also part of the event, and not just the students.

I feel that our part were more of a coordinate-between-areas than that of a welfare one, but still, we did take the student's welfare into consideration. we asked them to bring bottled water, and for my case, when the sun got too hot we allowed the students into the shade. Welfare of student should be covered by the schools; remember, it's for the president's challenge, i'm sure the organisers aren't getting a single cent out of doing this.

from what i know, the mess that caused our parts to go haywire was when we were supposed to move out to the sectors we were supposed to stand at. we actually had everything planned out down to the minute, but because some schools have students who didn't really cooperate, other sectors, including my own, had to stall for time. that was when the RI boys started getting rowdy. and when finally it was time for us to move out, sector 12 moved out immediately, but we had to organise the RI boys and get them to gather first.

because of the extra time that the stalling took up, and the time we used to get the RI boys gathered, we had to walk really fast towards our area. when i reached the point where the RI boys were supposed to start lining up, i waited almost 20 minutes for the rest to reach, and even then, i had alot of trouble getting them to stand in a straight line. The instructions i gave at first was, one arm's length from each other, side by side. i'm sure it wasn't hard to understand. but still they couldn't cooperate, even a few of the interact club members looked at me out of desperation when the boys they were in-charge of were clustered together and not following instructions. We were supposed to be ready then, but when the jeep passed us, i was still getting them to spread out properly.

let's skip to the execution of the pledge taking. What happened there was, i'm sure, not the students fault, not our fault as motivators, not even the organiser's fault. the radio station screwed up that last part. All of us were told that the DJ would initiate the countdown to the pledge taking after the 12 o'clock news at noon, but the station was playing songs all the way until around 1240 hrs, where out of nowhere the DJ started counting down. all the students were listening to the radio, and were getting ready for the pledge. but when the countdown ended, the DJ continued talking, and apparently that was the signal. From what i know, the station was suppose to air the national pledge, but they didn't. all of us were confused, really, really not our fault then.

There. you should be able to see clearly, at my point of view, it wasn't mostly our fault. yes, i agree that some things were overlooked, but when the schools agree to participate, they should have understood that it was their students there, and maybe could have provided more for their students. we had to endure what everyone had to, and more, and just a reminder, planning something at such a large scale wasn't easy to begin with, just cut us some slack, a little bit of understanding on your part will suffice.

thanks.

argh.

no mood to blog, after what happened yesterday with the nooblets on my blog. one more bloody comment and i'm bringing it up to the school. let's see what they'll do when it gets big.

what happened.

Back to this topic of flamers. How did people find my blog to flame on? because i have the decency to leave my name, so that comments could be directed to me. Flamers, on the other hand, use the anonymity of the internet to hide their acts of cowardice. Well, since we're on the topic of flamers, and the couple of flamers on my tagboard are from RI, i shall bring this topic more in-depth.

students from higher-end schools, not just RI, think they're so high and mighty, think they're better than those people from neighbourhood schools. well, i'm not sure whether i'm from a neighbourhood school, i have no idea where newtown comes under, but there's one thing i can confirm: neighbourhood schools have balls.

flashback to the connect sg incident at RI. RI were doing their raffles cheer. someone from ngee ann sec heard waffles and went "Huh? Waffles?!", RI SECONDARY ONE BOYS called them childish, and one even went on to reply, "see, neighbourhood school". WHAT IS THAT. and just the other day i saw this RI kid at bishan, holding what appears to be a bloody heavy lollipop, prancing around, while his maid/mom (i couldn't tell) followed closely behind with a bloody huge bag and a file. when i saw that my shoulders ached for the maid/mom.

nevermind other schools. RI. Raffles. The school named after that guy with the black and white statue. are we going to lay our fate in the hands of these so-called future leaders from the higher-end schools like hwachong and RI, if they have an attitude that's like that? I don't know. If any of you people reading this are teachers from such schools, please answer my query: How can you be leaders of a nation that's built up from scratch, when you yourself take everything for granted? How can one lead a nation, when all negative comments are made anonymously? How can a country grow with leaders that do not have enough guts to put down their names and be responsible for their actions?

i don't know. i really don't.

YO. READ UP.

okay, here's the thing. i've forgotten totally about the connect singapore thing, but since now you people want to bring back the topic, i shall fucking comply.

for those who don't know what's happening, it started when i replied to this RI student's blogpost on his blog here. He blamed the whole world but himself on the failure of connect sg, so i replied, pointing out to him roughly why certain points went wrong. The tone of my reply wasn't good, cos i'm bloody unhappy that although the failure is due to multiple faults, he keeps pushing it to us organisers. i didn't hide my identity, there's no point hiding my identity when what i said is true.

i've seriously forgotten about it. until stupid shit appeared on my tagboard. i'm gonna list out the comments:

• Connect Singapore sucks: i hate connect singapore
• Connect Singapore sucks: sebastian ure horny
• Connect Singapore sucks: s'bastard-chen u r so damn gay u destroyed Singapores hopes and dreams..its all your fault
• Connect Singapore sucks: the connect singapore wasnt shown on the news because of ure fugly face, the connect Sinagpore will be known as the worst national day celebration for sec1s in history
• Connect Singapore sucks: u think i stupcant see ure connect singaore post..the event was a flop coz u didnt listen in ure meetings

• pissedoff: you claimed to have done a lot for connectsg didn't pay attention during the connectsg trainings? hypocrite. and by the way, about 400 of us waited IN THE SUN too for more than an hour, while none of us were told to do anything. and therefore we're uncooperative?

Connect Singapore sucks is definitely not the owner of the blog i commented on, maybe his classmate or friend. Eh, secondary one, can tell. bloody childish, looking at the first few comments. If i'm so "fugly" and gay, at least i have balls. If i destroyed singapore's hope and dreams, well, it sure ain't up to you to save them.

pissedoff , i bet my "numbnuts" that it's your blog i commented on, compared the everything down to the last detail on the post here. i'm sure you're more mentally inclined then your friend there, but i'm also sure you've got the brains to tell that my comment that i didn't listen during the meetings is just a figure of speech? FYI, they do test us on what we know, and if i really didn't know a single shit, you people wouldn't even had made it to the gathering point, i would've marched the whole bunch of you onto the highway. and i still have the right mind to do it. And, you said the 400 of you all also stood in the sun for hours, but did all 400 of you run up and down the whole route like your leaders and I did? it sure didn't help that you all refused to listen to instructions. and you all were not told to do anything? ONE ARMS LENGTH, ONE ARMS LENGTH, i shouted all the way, and you people still clustered together like penguins afraid of the cold. ironic that the day itself was blistering hot.

If you'll like to insult people and you're afraid of the drawbacks, please do not leave personal information on your blog. Based on what you posted, it is considered defamatory to a single individual by the law, and i can easily appeal to take down your whole blog. If you don't understand, compare your post and mine, then go read up on international laws.

Commenting on your posts, the meeting time wasn't chosen by us, it was chosen by your teachers. and being in the shade for 5 mins is still better than being in none. I hide portions of my blog because most of my friends know that if its hidden, it's a bad-mood post, so they can skip it without me spoiling their mood. you didn't think your seniors had problems leading with the cheer. because you weren't the one holding up your handsigns for ten minutes. and the clusters of people i saw were literally clusters, like how hairballs come about, even though cat hairs are so fine. and to rebut your sumarised statement, if i'm a lying hypocrite, you're no better.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE~!

It's singapore's 43rd birthday, and i'm glad i'm not at the national day parade.

i attended the preview parade last saturday, there were blue skies as far as the eyes could see, and a blazing hot evening sun. today was different, people there had to bear with the wind and the rain. plus, with all the clouds up in the sky, they aren't gonna enjoy the performance by the Black Knights as much as i did.

Yesterday morning was the connect singapore event, and the whole thing was a total flop. My sector didn't listen to my instructions, and by the time we got ready, other blocks and sectors weren't. The 91.3 DJ was supposed to count down after the 12 o'clock news, but it was 1230 when she started, and she didn't play the national pledge. less than half the students actually took the pledge, and less than 1/4 of them actually said the full pledge immediatly after the countdown.

we didn't even know whether it was over.

The event did not appear on the news, for obvious reasons. if you go google the event name, you can read from the blogs of participants on how they feel. I, for one, think it wasted a whole lot of my bloody time, time which could have been spent more constructively. i'm not just talking about the event failing itself, i'm also talking about the countless pointless meetings i attended. Luckily i didn't pay attention to anything during the trainings; the only time i actually clarified my doubts was the morning itself, and even then, nothing was according to schedule, everything was impromptu.

after that, i went over to pasir ris to meet with chance and ziqi, and we went over to boris's house to celebrate his birthday. i got chance a pet brick as a present. i don't think he liked it alot. well, luckily for me, i think he liked his other present, which was a psp. who wouldn't.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANCE! AND THIS IS TYPED BY CHANCE

oh gawd.

connect sg's tomorrow.

i'm damn fucking nervous.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

feel it.

the theme's changed to fit the mood. there's only two days between now and national day. the image is my own. OWNED. the song's this year's main song, english version sung by hady mirza. Personally i think the lyrics are weird.

went to boonlay shopping centre today to get a psp for chance birthday (which is on friday). ridhuan's shop is supposed to be there, but its not. its not there cos i can't find it. and i couldn't get through to him via phone since last night. and he said he was gonna email me the price list. i think he lied, or he's that busy eh.

i'm in the poetic mood again. maybe the hand twitching thing i did on saturday wasn't for drawing, it was for writing.

Black. by s'bas-chen

midnight darkness.
dusky. gloomy. murky.
shadows of the night.
crows. ravens.
charcoal. sable. ebony.

bleak. sad. cheerless.
unhappy. joyless. dreary.
somber. depressing.
sinister. nefarious. evil.
threatening wickedness.

dusk. obscurity. dim.
black.