a reflection.

YEAH PEOPLE, I'M BACK~!!

laptop crashed on friday, back today. acer's got great service, get acer laptops.

this past week has been a pychological/emotional roller-coaster ride for me. been thinking alot. as in ALOT. plus the high fever on sunday and abit of monday, plus skipping classes on monday and tuesday, gave me lots of time to think.

i've changed alot, ever since i came into poly. i got to know alot of great people, and also some not-so-great ones, but i'm not talking about that kinda change. i'm talking about what's inside, the deep, psychological stuff. when i had the high fever, i slept more than half the day away, and the whole time i dreamt i was in a coliseum fighting goat after goat. up to this point, you all might think there's no link, but the thing is, i had the exact same dream when i was younger, but instead of fighting them, i was running away.

i've grown since then. not only physically, but mentally also. those of you who knew me last time, would know of me and some new species of monkey that would not stop jumping around. i do that less now, except when i'm allowed to. this is sorta me being matured i guess. no more jumping around. no more poking fun of others without caring for their feelings. no more excessive violence. no more the old me, i guess. which is good.

SHE HELD MY HAND LAST NIGHT.